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    Tuesday, March 31, 2009

    Appeal to Reason

    So, I finally bought Rise Against's latest album, Appeal to Reason.

    I've been meaning to get it, since, Oh I don't know, Beginning of 2008? I've been busy and my money have been away for other causes, so the idea of getting the album always slips my mind. Now I finally have it. And I must say, it is worth every cent. I mean it. The album is unexpectedly so much better. I had low expectations because of the probability the band may change the sound of their music. But no. They still are awesome, only on steroids! They've pumped up the musicality and you could almost head-bang to every song in the album. And by today's standards of albums, they've actually compiled quite a number of songs too. Also, it comes in a velvet paper casing. Biodegradable and recycle-able. How thoughtful.

    The album starts off with "Collapse (Post-Amerika)" with a badass riff that instantly sucks you in to the music (if you're into these kind of stuff like me, anyways). Works it way up nicely. The album gravitates more towards the "Our Govt and Society is Fucked Up" theme now, rather than the Heartbroken theme. So technically, it's not as emo. It's Punk.

    Also, take note that I actually BUY the album. And not download it. Unlike the bunch of you people out there. I know who you are. Lol. I rather support these hardworking bands. Piracy is lame, unless it comes to stuff that aren't really worth the high price. Heh. (everyone's a hypocrite, deal with it)

    So I will leave you with my personal favourite.
    "Savior" by Rise Against.


    It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
    What the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
    As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
    Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
    There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
    And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
    But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
    Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear

    So tell me now
    If this ain't love then how do we get out?
    Because I don't know
    That's when she said I don't hate you boy
    I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
    That's when I told her I love you girl
    But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

    But the day pressed on like crushing weights
    For no man does it ever wait
    Like memories of dying days
    That deafen us like hurricanes
    Bathed in flames we held the brand
    Uncurled the fingers in your hand
    Pressed into the flesh like sand
    Now do you understand?

    So tell me now
    If this ain't love then how do we get out?
    Because I don't know
    That's when she said I don't hate you boy
    I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
    That's when I told her I love you girl
    But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

    1000 miles away
    There's nothing left to say
    But so much left that I don't know
    We never had a choice
    This world is too much noise
    It takes me under
    It takes me under once again
    I don't hate you
    I don't hate you

    So tell me now
    If this ain't love then how do we get out?
    Because I don't know
    That's when she said I don't hate you boy
    I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
    That's when I told her I love you girl
    But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

    I don't hate you
    I don't hate you, no

    Saturday, March 28, 2009

    An Abundance of....

    Wow, this week was a total blast.

    I had the best time of my life. A romantic time of my life. Going on an epic adventure, meeting someone knew out of nowhere, settling my troubled and awkward past, and finally going in for the kiss in a romantic setting.

    Aww yeah...

    Just like living in a story of a novel...

    ..
    Which was what it is.... All I did was read this week.
    I didn't go anywhere but a few places for window shopping.

    All I did was read.. alot.

    Yeah....

    John Green is awesome though.
    Margo and Lindsey are some of the most beautiful girls I've ever.... read.

    Nevermind.

    Tuesday, March 24, 2009

    Random Facts #56

    Random Facts about Me.

    #56

    I find girls with ponytails attractive.

    ...
    ...
    ...

    What?

    "The Great Escape" - We Are Scientist



    Making my escape
    Making my escape
    Tell myself that
    Everything's in shape
    Everything's in shape
    But me
    How long can this take
    How long can this take
    Tell myself that
    Everything is great
    Everything is great
    Well how'm I doing?

    I gotta great idea
    I'm gonna wait right here
    I gotta great idea
    I'm gonna wait right here
    While everything is adding
    Up, up, up
    Everything is adding
    Up, up, up

    Breaking both my hands
    Breaking both my hands
    Telling me to
    Take it like a man
    Take it like a man
    I can't
    I don't understand
    I don't understand
    Please repeat whatever you just said
    Nothing's making sense
    Well how'm I doing?

    I gotta great idea
    I'm gonna wait right here
    I gotta great idea
    I'm gonna wait right here
    While everything is adding
    Up, up, up
    Everything is adding
    Up, up, up

    They're breaking both my hands
    They're breaking both my hands
    And telling me to
    Take it like a man
    And take it like a man
    Well fuck that
    I don't understand
    Said I don't understand
    So please repeat whatever you just said
    'cause nothing's making sense
    Well how'm I doing?

    I gotta great idea
    I'm gonna wait right here
    I gotta great idea
    I'm gonna wait right here
    While everything is adding
    Up, up, up
    Everything is adding
    Up, up, up

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    My life in a nutshell

    Wow.

    D:

    Epic huh.

    Wednesday, March 18, 2009

    Damn Bus Rides

    I have a thing here. Apparently, I'm sick. No, I know I've said before, but not Sick as in Sick-Sick, I mean mind-sick, but not Effing-Sick or mental-sick just mind-sick. Get it? No? Well nevermind.

    I'm sick. I keep taking bus rides. Why.
    I mean, the train is much faster and all, but I still gravitate toward the old long four-wheeler.
    And whats more is that, for short journeys, I take the train. But for journeys that would take forever to get to, I take the bloody Bus instead. What. Don't look at me like that.

    I know it's stupid, but I have my reasons. I think. First of all, I'm currently in the midst of waiting to enter Polytechnic, so till then I'm not paying students fair anymore, I'm paying the full fucking price! D:

    I swear, I could drain a whole $10 in less than a week. This one time, Khai and I went to Chua Chu Kang just for a 20mins trip there, and when we returned to Sengkang, my Ez-link card was drained to half it's amount. In less than a day. I just topped up to $10 earlier that day. So from then on, I started taking bus rides, they seem.. cheaper? Maybe. Or I use my legs and fukken walk. Hah!

    But seriously, for the past month or so I've been taking bus rides to immense destinations. Ever taken a Bus from Jurong all the way back to Hougang? No? Well, I HAVE. And I don't know whether to be proud or not. That trip was torture at best. What I thought would be an hours ride or so, became a nightmare. Little did I know that the bus would at first go South of Singapore, then across Central Singapore and to the Eastern side of the country, only to retreat back to the North and nicely stop at Hougang interchange. It was an endurance test. My pants were chaffing, my nose were leaking, my mind was sinking, and my body was shivering. I ride lasted a mere 2 and a half hours. The moment I stepped off the bus, I gasped in the fresh air I had longed for throughout the ride and relish the feel of normal humid warm air again. My legs were still shaking from the sudden awakening. I had been dipping in and out of sleep. The only keeping me together was my mp3 player.

    Looking at the list of bus stops the bus makes at an interchange could be deceiving. It's easy to see and count how many stops there would be inbetween your destination and the interchange. But living it is a total different thing. So don't think that maybe your stop is only somewhere on the second column of the list, and the trip would be short lived. Don't ever underestimate that. The feeling of disappointement is not worth it. Gah!

    Okay to be honest, I don't really hate the bus. It's nice to ride and to relax. The train is claustrophobic enough and the probability of you finding a seat would depend. I fancy not the crowds that pack the only areas that you would ever feel comfortable standing at. Or the ones who would stare at you endlessly just because you're alone, look different, or currently playing a handheld game console that does not resemble a Playstation Portable.

    I love bus rides. And that is why I'm sick. Most people would just go for the easy option of the train. Ignoring the crowd or extra fare just for the sake of getting to their destination quickly. But for me, my first option will always be to look for a bus that crosses path with my destination. Besides, I get to save a few cents and view places in Singapore I never knew existed or would never in my life step foot upon. Though I'll have to brace for the journey, I'll have to endure it one way or another.

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    The only reason why I wrote this was to prevent the "boredom army" from taking over my mind.

    Also I needed to write something again, and I like writing.

    So read it, or not. I don't give a F*ck D:

    Also, it's for me to get out of mein Emo-mood. It's time I move on and look on the brrriiiiiighhhttt siiiiddeee off liiiffeeee .... maybe

    Monday, March 16, 2009

    Best of You


    Foo Fighters - Best Of You (Acoustic/Live) - Foo Fighters

    It appears I have burst into flames

    Conventions in Singapore a rare. But when one do comes around, expect the horde of kiasu Singaporeans to massively congregate to it in an attempt to experience what the fuss is all about and to get good cheap deals they probably won't ever get elsewhere.

    The IT Fair is (or was) here! "Gadets galore, Electronics some more!" That should have been the slogan for the fair, if you asked me. I've been there, twice in fact. Once with my family, and another with a couple of friends. I was there for the first and second day. The fair lasted for 4 days. On the first day, the crowd was packed enough. Fortunately, it was bearable and in the end, got myself a new Lenovo laptop. I'll get more detail into that later.

    Second day, my friends and I met up during our former school's annual Sports Day event. Lame as always, boring as fuck as usual. Every year it's the same. Only the runners, jocks and cheerleaders were having the fun. The spectators won't give a fuck on whats going on, only trying to bear the fact they had to waste half of a nice day stuck in a stadium doing nothing. Hah. My meeting with my classmates started my day off well. Catching up with each other, and wishing each other the best for our future. We left just before the started to rain. Looks like the event would have to be cut short, hah.

    A whole day spent walking around non-stop (and I mean it) (seriously, there was no where to sit) (seriously, ouch) (wth). The whole point there was to see the other half of the convention (which I missed out on the first day) aannd to look for a good notebook deal for Khai. Hah. Fussy minded guy. My legs, they hurt.

    And whoop de dah. On the very next day, I felt a burning sensation that most people have refered to as "burning up", "body aches", "pyrexia", "an increase in body temperature above normal levels" or how the public popular dubbed it as a Fever. |:

    Gah. Waking up with aches, terrible headaches, inability to focus myself, and dropping in and out of concious. Yes for real. I was sick, the fever was only the main object, but other effect had it's toll on me. What's worst is that whenever I fall asleep, I've been having weird hallucinations or dreams. Hard to describe, it just made me more giddy when I woke up. Ugghhh....

    Being sick only made my mind worst. Unlike, well, you know. I haven't had time to be preoccupied with stuff. It's hard to not think when I don't want to think. I have to learn to move on and face the fact it's over. It's fucking over, I lived a sweet dream and woke up to reality. Wow. Sounds like a quote from a song. Hmmm....

    In an unrelated matter. I'm coping with myself now. It still hurts when I think about it. That's why I don't want to. I should move on, or should I not? I don't know. But you look happy with the other people around you. I'm glad you are. I don't think I could ever do the same. I wish I could pour my heart out and show you what I think, feel, and all the words I want to say to you, but I can't seem to. I'm sorry. I'm not making sense.

    My heart is under arrest again, my head is giving me life or death, but I can't choose.

    Thursday, March 12, 2009

    Im So Stupid

    Gah, what the hell was I thinking.

    Of course it's over.

    I've got to move on.

    Feelings are killing me inside.

    Good riddance love, I hope you had a time of your life.

    Really, I have to stop myself.

    I don't know whether if you do or do not.

    It's killing me on the inside.

    Gadgets Galore and Feelings Alore

    People come to me for their gadget and electronic troubleshooting, as if I would know about every single computer thing out there. It gets stressful at times to keep up and try to at least keep a straight face when telling them information that I may be a little sketchy of. I don't keep up to date with all gadgetry and computer stuff. Sure I can fix and install and research for your hardware needs, but it I won't always give you a straight or effective solution for your troubleshoots.

    I'm not perfect. But I'm happy to help in any way I can. Helping makes me high, haha. The satisfaction of successfully aiding a friend in need can never be compared with anything else. So if you're asking me for help, don't always expect me to give you a 100% solution. I may or may not be able to get it done for you. But I will try my best and not let you guys down. Heh.

    Speaking of that, my latest troubleshooting I've done is for Leonard's newly bought Nintendo DS. Now I haven't really been playing around with my own NDS lately. So I may be a little rusty. I volunteered to download games for it. But when I realise his DS's R4 cartridge isn't fully working yet, it was needless to say that I would have to fix it too.

    I spent the whole of last night trying to figure out the problem for it's issue. Apparently, the DS would be stucking in a "Loading..." screen forever. It won't budge. I research all over the internets in hopes of finding a solution. Downloading every bit of software I thought might work with the cartridge. Alas, I failed. The only rationale I could get out of the problem is that the Cartridge poor dear Leonard bought was a clone or apparently a different version of what he thought it would be and requires a specific software for itself. I needed the information of where that cartridge came from, but I had no source. He didn't have the box that came along with the cartridge. Oh wells. I'm so sorry Leonard. If I can find a solution I'll do what I can for ya Bro. Hahah.

    That wasn't the only thing I did yesterday.
    Earlier I had spent the day with her. A movie and a short shopping trip. That was all.
    Role models was a laugh. A little matured but, I like that kind of crap. Haha.

    Hmm, the whole time I was with her, it felt so weird again.
    Ever since that night, I don't know why I just can't be the same way again. I'm trying to, but I don't seem to know how. All that weeks and months of building my confidence to be with her was somehow destroyed. I don't blame her. It was my fault starting it in the first place. With recent happenings, I just feel confused.... I don't know how to exactly say it (I do but I don't want to..). Oh wells, I'll find a way to get this through. If you're reading this, you know who you are, don't be hurt. It's my fault. I just gotta do more thinking and I'll find a way to get this all over and out with. Heh.

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    Do you remember back then, when we met
    You told me this gets harder
    Well it did
    Been holding on forever...
    Promise me that when I'm gone
    You won't forget me


    We never got that far
    This helps me to think all through the night
    Bright lights that won't kill me now, won't tell me how
    I'm probably just another line in your book.


    Monday, March 9, 2009



    It's been one week since you looked at me
    cocked your head to the side and said I'm angry.
    Five days since you laughed at me
    saying get that together come back and see me.
    Three days since the living room
    I realized it's all my fault, but couldn't tell you
    Yesterday you'd forgiven me
    but it'll still be two days till I say I'm sorry


    Lolololololololololololol.

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    In other news, I own at Halo Wars.. that is all.

    Friday, March 6, 2009

    Rumors Of My Demise Have Been Greatly Exaggerated

    So please don't ask me how
    I ended up at my wits end and breaking down
    Pages torn from books we never read
    Because we're plugged into this grid
    Don't pull this plug right now or then we'd really have to live

    When I die, will they remember not what I did but what I haven't done?
    It's not the end that i fear with each breath, it's life that scares me to death
    When we build these dreams on sand
    How they all slip through our hands
    And this might be our only chance
    Let's take this one day at a time
    I'll hold your hand if you hold mine
    The time that we kill keeps us alive

    Your words won't save me now
    I'm at the edge feeling the sweat drip from my brow
    Get a grip on yourself is what they say
    Every hour everyday
    Hands over my ears, i've been screaming all these years

    When I die will they remember not what I did but what I haven't done?
    It's not the end that I fear with each breath, it's life that scares me to death
    When we build these dreams on sand
    How they all slip through our hands
    And this might be our only chance
    Let's take this one day at a time
    I'll hold your hand if you hold mine
    The time that we kill keeps us alive

    We came in search of answers
    We left empty handed again
    Shots fired into the sky are now returning
    Where the fuck will you hide?

    Hiding from the laughter in the closets of our lives
    But the door hinges are squeaking letting in thin shards of light
    And now a hand's extending outward, quiet comfort they invite
    Do we dare take what they offer, do we step into the light?

    When I die will they remember not what I did but what I haven't done?
    It's not the end that I fear with each breath, it's life that scares me to death
    When we build these dreams on sand
    How they all slip through our hands
    And this might be our only chance
    Let's take this one day at a time
    I'll hold your hand if you hold mine
    The time that we kill keeps us alive

    When we build these dreams on sand
    How they all slip through our hands
    And this might be our only chance
    Let's take this one day at a time
    I'll hold your hand if you hold mine
    The time that we kill keeps us alive



    Ignore the first 30seconds.
    Listen to the music after that.

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    A Nice song by one of my favourite Bands - Rise Against.

    RA's songs tend to have strong lyrics behind them. I admire their work.
    They're hardcore and emotionally powerful.

    Ever since of recent happening
    I've been listening to them much more now. Most likely in hopes to "drown out" the pain.
    This song in particular got me to even more thinking of a much recent happening.
    Relates to me... somehow.

    Still, enjoy the hardcore rock music .... or not, just enjoy the lyrics.
    It means alot.

    Thursday, March 5, 2009

    Tweeeeeeeteeeeerrrrr

    Twitter is awesome.

    Go do it.

    Now.

    I mean it.

    Go.

    Stop reading.

    DO IT NOW.