A Letter

A Letter to Elise by The Cure

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you say

I just can't stay here every yesterday

Like keep on acting out the same

The way we act out

Every way to smile

Forget

And make-believe we never needed

Any more than this

Any more than this

Oh Elise it doesn't matter what you do

I know I'll never really get inside of you

To make your eyes catch fire

The way they should

The way the blue could pull me in

If they only would

If they only would

At least I'd lose this sense of sensing something else

That hides away

From me and you

There're worlds to part

With aching looks and breaking hearts

And all the prayers your hands you make

Oh I just take as much as you can throw

And then throw it all away

Oh I throw it all away

Like throwing faces at the sky

Like throwing arms round

Yesterday

I stood and stared

Wide-eyed in front of you

And the face I saw looked back

The way I wanted to

But I just can't hold my tears away

The way you do

Elise believe I never wanted this

I thought this time I'd keep all of my promises

I thought you were the girl I always dreamed about

But I let the dream go

And the promises broke

And the make-believe ran out...

So Elise

It doesn't matter what you say

I just can't stay here every yesterday

Like keep on acting out the same

The way we act out

Every way to smile

Forget

And make-believe we never needed

Any more than this

Any more than this

And every time I try to pick it up

Like falling sand

As fast as I pick it up

It runs away through my clutching hands

But there's nothing else I can really do

There's nothing else I can really do

There's nothing else

I can really do

At all...

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I haven't posted in awhile.

This song strikes me. Everything, minus the name Elise, word for word is the truth.

I was never good with words, and I'm relying on music to help me speak.

....

I'm sorry it had to come to this. After building so much, after working on us for so long. All the hardships we've been through.

I had to tear the wall down out of hate and confusion, now the wall no longer exist.

But I digress.

I look back. And remember all the times I had tried hard to keep the wall intact. The repairs we've made to keep it standing. The good times it kept us safe and happy. Now the wall is no longer there. And I don't think it'll ever be again.

I'll leave you to it. I'm just gonna fade into the midst like the person I am.