Omg, Im procrastinating .. big whoop. Also, |:

Omg, get off my back people. I know it's been almost a week .. (okay 4 days the most) ... (okay maybe 5) since my return to Singapore, and I know you guys are 'anxious' to see the pictures I've taken since I've been saying Aussie land is such a Photographer's Paradise and all..

I've been in a mood of not having a mood lately. In other ways, I'm being a fuck-off lazy ass right now. Gah ... I took tons and tons and tons of pics, and I am currently in the process of uploading them. When I say tons, I really mean it. Not to mention the videos I have yet to edit and upload on YOUTUBE. Or should I say .. JEWTUBE .. HAH ... ouh, okay fine .. that was racist, oopsie. Sue me...

So chill guys, I'll blog it out one day or another. I've got tons to right about and opinions to spill out, I'm just using up my whole free time I have right now.
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C(cube) Review

Chandni Chowk to China was .... uhh ... I have no idea to put it. Half of the movie was a joke, then it became a melodramatic action kung-fu movie. The jokes were cheap, but I didn't mind. I'd take anything that can make me laugh. :D

Still, the story was abstruse. I was trying to make what the heck was happening during the first few parts of the film, when I finally got it, I still had no idea why even the most cliche of scenes seemed not rightly written. I'm not saying that I didn't enjoy it. I did. For the most. The first half of the story, was like I said, a total Joke. It was trying to be a comedy yet serious at somepoint. The comedy was half-okay, the serious part too ... Lol. Honestly, I was trying to find a way to enjoy myself and get the movie through. However, when the epic and serious action-packed part of the movie kicked in, I was already at the uncomfortable edge of my sit, too restless to comprehend the movie anymore. But I still did it. And got through the end of the movie with a smile.

The movie was like a typical Hindustan movie cum Western/Chinese Kung-Fu Drama. A potent combination, and I guess it fits of the most. The actors were serious eye candy ... grraawwwll... Okay, stop it. I give it 3.5/5.

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It's nice to see her again. I kinda had a plan today for what we could do after the movie. But she wasn't in favour of going town-side today. Oh wells. I gave her, her Opal Necklace (I bought at Perth) the normal way .. haha. Had something planned on the presentation, but ah wells. Not all could go as plan. And at least she likes the necklace ... yeap. Thats all I care about, her being happy.

I'll find a way to spend a full day with her. But for now, her priorities come first, I'll wait. Like I always do. Wait.

Speaking of waiting, word on the street is that Jan 30th is the Posting day for JAE applicants. If it is true, I want it that way. I rather have it fast and quick, rather than waiting a lifetime to know my future. Let's get it over with.

Away from Home...

Well, first off, as I am writing this, I am awaiting to board my plane.
Yup, that's it. I'm going off the country for the week. Apparently, I will be flying off to Perth, Australia.

Aussie Land, havent been there for awhile now. My parents see this trip as a "treat" for me. I see it as a lame excuse to get out of Singapore for awhile. Heh. They've been bugging me all month of December about the trip, but today suddenly, Dad got tix this morning. So I'll be leaving tonight and I won't be back by Saturday. Oh, i feel sooo excited for the trip ... I was sarcastic in that last bit, if you didn't realise that.

I'll probably return with hunter's hat, a vest, sunglasses, a kukri, and an accent that would give headshots to bald guys with big guns. Yeah, lame reference .. but if you can get it, hooray for you!

Ah wells, at least I've sent off my JAE application. I can only pray and hope for the best.

Till then, I'll be missing my love alot.
She's very busy right now, and her being so diligent with her work, makes me very proud and I love her for that. :)

Can't wait to see and spend the whole day with her again...

Till I return, stay frosty people. Have a Happy week ....

Seize the Day....

Ever had that feeling? When you're heart tells you great things, yet your mind pessimistically gives you harsh images of the reality and makes you think deeper, only to leave u dissapointed with what you have at the end of the day? Well, It's a bitch, and I feel so confused right now.

The friggin' O levels results came out today. It was the beginning of the end for all of us. Did we had any last minute worries or an extra boost of confidence? Perhaps, but no one said a word. Not on the way to school, not when the Principal went up stage to announce the results ... not a word.

I could see how the Secondary 4s joyfully celebrated their exuberant victory over the mere examinations, but when I looked back at my cohort, I could see tears and faces of discontent throughout the masses of the Secondary 5 students. Clarissa was one of the "victim", I feel so sorry for her. She seemed like the kind of girl who would be as smart as good as she looked like. Damn. Damn you Cambridge, and ur snotty like & "Ooo, I'm such a smarty pants and moar smarter you, coz I'm BRITISH" Professors! >:C

Fadhil, I am awefully sorry for him. I pity the fact that he's my closest friend and what he got was downright sad. He too seemed like the kind of guy who would be diligent enough to complete his work, but alas .... guuh.

Khai instead is a funny case. Weeks prior to the results and days before the announcement of the results day, he was frightened, terrified, petrified, mortified about what his results would be, constantly bugging me about whether he could make to Poly or not. Today, he found out he can. Haha, this further proves my theory of life that Over-confidence is a No-No - Always be frightened about the future, so when u expect the worst, nothing what you expect will happen, and instead the future will be bright. The theory's a little frayed around the edges,, but what'dya gonna do about it, huh? Lawl....

As for me..
My grades were ... fair.

Here's what I ended up with:
L1R4+CCA = 13
EL1R2B2 = 16

English - B3
Maths - B4
Sciences - B3
Combined Humanities - B3
Malay - C6
Pure Geography - B3
Food & Nutrition - D7

Not the best, to me, I feel pathetic...
Being raised in a family where high expections are a must, and the best is the only way, I find myself dissapointed with my grades. I had really expected to get an A for English, and a B3 or A2 for Maths. I studied maths end over end, night over night. And yet I got a fucking B4. GAWD DAMMIT. Pure Geography was a subject I HARDLY STUDIED AT ALL. I only read a mere of it the night before the paper. For the whole year, I didn't payed a single attention to whatever Miss Anne Lee teached in class. And yet, I got a B3 from it. Seriously, what the hell?

See, as I said. Life will never give you what you would expect from it. It'll most likely hit you in the head with an unexpected surprise that leave you numbnuts...

Well, as for JAE, I know what courses I would like to choose. I have 12 choices. Now this is where my mind starts to fill my head with images of dissapointment.

I know what courses I want. Mostly are media courses from various polys like SP and NP. But thats the thing. Media courses are notoriously known for being very competitive when it comes to admission. Though I am eligible for almost all those media courses, I am scared that they would not choose me as my grades do not seem to have that extra edge to give me a boost in said competition. I'm standing on thin ice, and I'm risking it by choosing these media courses. I am afraid that other smarter and much better people than me would opt for the same courses that I want, and because they seem much more significant than me. They'll fill the spots instead, leaving me high and dry. I've felt that bitter failure during the DPAs. I just don't want it to happen again.

Media is my only interest. I have no desire to be Scientist or Engineer. My dream and passion is to write or create any form of media to entertain and educate the masses. So if I do not get the courses that I do want, it's gonna hurt me a big time. And if I end up with a course where I have little or no interest in, I would only be going to Poly for the sake of name and to live in a breezy Poly lifestyle, but not to follow my dreams - like what everyone is supposed to do in life.

I'm just ranting here. And I know it wouldn't matter to most of other people, and I know other people have it much more harder than me. But I just needed to get it off my chest. My parents do not seem to understand my problem, though I'm not really ticked off by that. Oh wells, I'll just give a shot at the courses I had aimed for. Creative Writing for TV & New Media ... a new course, how demanding is it going to be? I'll just have to see. Will I be able to somehow stand out from the crowd and get a spot in said course? Perhaps I will, mostly probably I will not. Only time will tell.

City of Delusions

Well, lah-dee-dah!
I actually ended up doing something for the whole week.
How bloody ironic, I always thought I'd be rotting my arse at home for the whole of this holiday. Apparently, fate has been niiiiiicceee to me. I'm not.

NV NCC is dying and rotting. Rotting to it's very last crippled limb. They should be happy that I smelled it's stench of a corpse and called for an ambulance to aid it back to health. It's in ICU now, in a very bad but somehow stable condition. A single fuck up could very well end it's very existence. And by that, I mean, the very NCC Unit that brought me up is FAILING... BAD. GAWD.

Over the month of December, I called in to check on them, only to find them in the state of non-existence. I got help from my mates to help it back on it's feet. The Current Part D, though somehow confident in their senior-ship, are still Playful, and unclear of their ultimate task as Specialist and Leaders of the Unit. So from now on, I'm coming down to give them aid and support.

Went down for CCA Carnival last Tuesday. Was a mess, but we managed to make something from it. Our booth seemed pathetic compared to the obnoxious NPCC's. But oh wells, what'dya gonna do about it, huh? Anwar, the CSM, couldn't give much of speech to the Sec 1s we were recruiting, so I stepped in and gave a talk to them newbies about NCC and why it KICK ASS. Sometimes you gotta stretch the truth in order to get things done. It's tradition!










Camouflaged Sniper is Camouflaged

Stayed overnight in school to watch the Sec 1 Orientation Campfire. Wow, lame. Seriously, wtf? Instead I hanged out with my NCC juniors and mates and we crapped the night away before I forced them back to their posts with their carpark duty. LULZ.

The following sat, I went out with ze one and only, Miss HappyFeet, to the movies! Bedtime Stories was cute and innocent, yet so subtly wrong in a way. Heh. Oh Bugsy, you're innocent bug-eyed look always make the crowd go -



Wednesday, me hanged out at ze quietiest and awkward Polytechnic. Republic Poly. I think we were supposed to be there for an Open House event, but fuck that. Haha, slacking in a school I dont even go to is MUCH more FUN. Somehow ... guuuh.

In the evening, I met up with Her and we had dinner together! Haha. A short meeting, but Oh wells...

Thursday? Well, I had a splendid time with long friend (somehow) Ananda. Oh youuuuuu ...
The whole day gaming? What the wonderful time. He's awsim! D:

Friday? Today? WTF, TODAY. ARE YOU CRAZY?! YOU SERIOUS?
I'LL SAVE IT FOR TOMORROW. D:
The great penguin in my room said so ... he tells me things...
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Do you have the time to listen to me whine?
About nothing and everything all at once! 
I am one of those 
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone 
No doubt about it!

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I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

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Courtesy of Fadarozzzzzzzzzzzz :D

Gifts and Curses

And so it ends! The delirium of 2008 is finally over. After a hectic year of bitchiness and fighting, I very much think I've accomplished quite alot this year. Though not as insouciant as 2007, the year had been fair to me. It had a touch of melancholy yet always compensates eventually. I've completed my O levels, and my Secondary School years at last. Made a love one, and feel like a much better person I was before I had stepped foot into the school.

Now comes 2009, a whole new year. Full of surprises to astound or disappoint us. The world predicts the worst for the times ahead, but in my experience .. anything goes! Anything can happen in this abstruse world we live in. For me? I'll simply Smile and Wave as the world goes by.

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Anywho, enough of that sentimental bull crap. I had a great time yesterday!

The last day of 2008....
I needed to do something with someone. It would be foolhardy to just stay home as the year fades away. I couldn't go out with her. She had school, so I went out with my best mates instead.

A day in the town. Shopping and sightseeing and crapping. Lulz
From Suntec to Peninsular to Bugis to teh Esplanade. We had a Fun and Epic time slacking, and trying to find spots around town with Wireless internet connectivity! Typing and walking - not for the faint-hearted!! LOL!

Hahaha... |:
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The night after was a brilliant. I pulled a trick out of my sleeve, and made her smile. I did it out of love. And I'm glad she liked it, lol

It's been so long since I've seen her...
Since I've hold on to her...


It's empty and cold without you here...
Too many people to ache over...


Always remember,
No matter...
..how far we are...
..how different we maybe...
I'll always love you ...