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    Thursday, April 30, 2009

    About a Girl

    I need an easy friend
    I do, With a ear to lend
    I do, Think you fit this shoe
    I do, But you have a clue

    Take advantage while
    You hang me out to dry
    But I can't see you every night. Free
    ...I do

    I'm standing in your line
    I do, Hope you have the time
    I do, Pick up number two
    I do, Keep a date with you

    Take advantage while
    You hang me out to dry
    But I can't see you every night. Free
    ...I do

    Monday, April 27, 2009

    H

    I honestly got nothing to say again.

    Just felt obligated to update.

    Poly is fun.... aaaanndd... tiring. Isn't it always? Pfft...

    I wanna do stuff

    Saturday, April 25, 2009

    Long Road To Ruin




    Currently getting high on this

    The Morning

    Chapter 1

    The morning rose to an orange theme, as Leo awoke from his slumber. As he raised himself from the squeaking bed, he paused for a moment. Gaining conscious, while trying to refocus his mind for the day. He turned his head and saw the dawn broke. He awoke a little too early, for his taste. His mouth dry, and his head still hanging high from the sleep, Leo pushed his skinny self off the bed.

    He wasn't particularly glad about the day at all. In fact, he had longed abhorred the day since almost twelve hours ago. Reluctant to move out of bed, he amassed all the strength he had in him, just so he could stand up only to fall back onto his bed with a thud. He shut his eyes once again, and in hopes of being able to sleep the day off. But he couldn't. Almost immediately, his phone rang across the dusty room.

    "Not now..." Leo groaned. Of all the times phones have to ring, it would always be when you're at most vulnerable. Always while you're doing something that’s most important to you. Never when you’re just sitting there, doing nothing, figuring out a solution to our boredom state. Leo thought, as he ignored the phone and drifted himself back to sleep. He cancelled out the noise in his head and tried to get more shut eye. Eventually, his seemingly epic Battle of Will was lost, when he couldn't stand the ringing phone anymore for the third time already. Forcing himself out of bed, he zombie-walked to his phone, half-heartedly picking it up.

    “What..?”

    “You ready, bro?” an enthusiastic voice burst into the receiving end of his phone.

    “No. I’m not actually.” Leo replied, his voice sounding bored.

    “Aww, you’re gonna feel so wrong after we’re done. It’s going to be so much fun. So many awesome, and I mean AWESOME stuff to see and do man. So, see you at 10, at Macks, right?” Andy said. For some reason, he being so enthusiastic over the phone did not appealed to Leo at all.

    “Yeah, yeah. Fine.” Leo reluctantly said.

    “Oh yeah, don’t forget that disc bro. I really need it, ASAP. K, see ya.” Andy said and hung up.

    Andy had been Leo’s best friend ever since he entered Secondary School. He had more friends, but Andy had always been the one he’s very close to. But for all the years of knowing him, he could not understand why the heck he would be so excited over a trip to a local Farm. It’s just a farm. Where animals and people live, helping each other, apparently. But nonetheless, a farm. What’s so special about it? It’s not like as if they were going to the Louvre Museum in Paris, or the Sydney Opera House, or SeaWorld. Leo couldn’t care much for that anyways. He dragged himself to the closet, picked up a fresh towel and hastily made his way to the bathroom, realizing that his urge to pee is now none other than his highest priority of the day, besides the farm.


    ***

    All morning Leo spent his time packing his backpack. He grabbed an extra bottle of water from the kitchen and threw it in. Placed his Nikon D300 Digital SLR camera snuggly into a special compartment of his bag, and even decided to bring a book which he probably won’t ever bother to read. He debated whether he would rather bring along his Playstation Portable or Mp3 player, but eventually decided on the latter, on the count that he’d rather have music blasting through his ears to get through the day in one piece. He checked and rechecked his belongings to ensure nothing was left behind. Like that time when he went out camping for a week, and he left his entertainment devices at home. He barely made out of the forest sane.

    Now here’s the thing with Leo. He’s you’re typical City boy. Obsessed with gadgets of the latest kind and surviving in the comfort zone that is the 21st century. So perhaps that might explain his disdain of going to a farm, where he would have to leave the realm of his own comfort zone.

    He left home alone, as his parents had already left for work earlier. The walk to the bus stop was fairly short, and he waited for almost 10 minutes for the bus. He placed his headset on his head and hooked it to his ears, as it was designed for. Switched on his Zune Player and saw that Rise Against was the last thing he listened to. Feeling lazy to look for another band, he just pressed play and let the heavy punk riffs of Rise Against blast his ears.

    That’s how we’ll know, this is not a test!
    We’ll know, this is cardiac arrest!

    The song played. That was the only part of the song Leo could grasp, since it was catchy enough to memorize. The rest of the song was a garbling mix of screaming, screeching guitars and pounding drums. He didn’t care. He actually liked it, for the tunes made him feel much away from his apathetic self.

    Writings

    So okay, I've said before that I've been writing during the holidays.
    It's not much but I've put a lot of effort refining each chapter.
    So for the next few weeks, I'll post a chapter of the story I've wrote.

    It's called "The Morning"

    I'm not quite sure what it'll be about, but I have the story already written in my head.

    Enjoy.

    Friday, April 24, 2009

    Haircut Numero Dos

    Remember when I said I wasn't going to get another haircut ever? Well, I lied.

    I just did.


    behold my gayness

    Mostly a hair-trim actually. You see, the back of my hair was annoying me for weeks now. Coz' the rest of my hair is pretty short (okay, except for my fringe). And the back of my hair was growing exceptionally long. My hair totally look unbalanced and ugly. Had to go trim it, and trimmed my fringe while I was at it. Now my hair looks much much better though. I look snazzy if not sexy. Hahaha, lame. |:

    Now I have to figure out what to do tomorrow. It's a Saturday. It's not like I've got nothing to do. It's that I've got too many things to do. An outing, a match, a meeting, and a gathering. Gah. I have no idea which to prioritize or go for Seriously. This is unfair. Why couldn't have these things happened during my break WHEN I HAD NOTHING TO DO. Why do you torment me so. Dammit.

    ----
    Ps. Poly is awesome. I feel so different from secondary school. SHALL BLOG ABOUT IT TOMORROW. GAH, another thing to do tomorrow. FFFFFFFFFFFFFF----

    Thursday, April 23, 2009

    Yeah Awkward

    To be honest, I don't know what to write.
    But I feel obligated to write anyways.
    'Coz today feels so empty.

    I'm having a good time in school. Good people. Yeah.

    But sometimes, my mind and mood would just switch back and forth. For no reason? Haha yeah, I'm weird that way.

    To be honest, sometimes I feel like smoking. You know, taking up a bad habit. So I can get my mind off stuff I don't want to think about and only feel good all the time. But that's never gonna happen. Apparently....

    I'm happy now, just that when I think too much I get all apathetic and boring. I'm sorry.

    I'll blog about something important soon. This has been an awkward post to write anyways.

    Wednesday, April 22, 2009

    Pointless post is pointless.

    Oh god, this is weird.

    I'm friggin' tired, I just want to sleep. At the same time I want to go to school, have fun, be early, and all that bull.

    This feeling was never in me during Secondary school. Never. I abhorred going to school during those years.

    Gah... back to doing my homework... watching TV. Project Runway, lawl

    Ya your post was interesting Rachel. Be Happy.

    Tuesday, April 21, 2009

    I wonder..

    Thought I ran into you down on the street

    Then it turned out to only be a dream


    I made a point to burn all of the photographs


    She went away and then I took a different path


    I remember the face


    But I can't recall the name


    Now I wonder how whatsername has been


    ...

    The regrets are useless in my mind
    She's in my head
    From so long ago

    Sunday, April 19, 2009

    The End... Reset

    Hmmm...
    So this is how beginning again feels like. I missed the feeling. Last I felt this was five years ago. My 6 month break has officially ended. It was fun while it lasted. I've done so much, yet so little. Felt so alive yet so empty. It was a break well spent, if not fully wasted. Secondary School is now but a memory. I joke about not wanting to go back all the time, and how I despise the system. But to be honest, looking back it's where all the good times happened. All the fun happened. All the stories happened. All the pain, the struggle, the fights, the insecurities, the troubles and all the bullshit that was thrown in my face happened. You know what? It made me stronger. I was never like this before. I was quiet, which I still maybe, but I'm different now. I feel better in a sense, if not perfect. Secondary school changed me alot, no small part due to my friends, whom I will miss. I will treasure the times I've had. Forgive and forget all the bullshit I've done. And Remember the mistakes I've made.

    And so tomorrow begins anew. Finally, I'm in a tertiary school. I've met some cool people, and I am very much looking forward to studying and working with them. Let's go.

    ***

    Spending 6 months at home isn't as fun as it sounds like. It's a total bore, and the way I lead my life during the months is kinda lame. So this is so far what I've done. A retrospective, if I may.

    I met a special someone. I fell in love. For real. I really did. It was the epitome of my happiness. But out of it in the end, it didn't quite ended the way I had hoped it would be. The memory still burns in my mind. I broke. I felt confused. I didn't want to be sad, but didn't know how to be happy either. I kept it to myself. But I've moved on since. I don't know about her. She looks like she's having a much more splendid time with other people if not someone else. I try not to think anymore. Even if the feeling for her is still there in me, I know I can't open myself the way I did again. It won't be right. So I moved on to other things. As Alfred from "Batman Begins" puts it ... Why do we fall down? So we can learn how to pick ourselves up.

    I've tried finding jobs. A failed attempted that lasted for 2 months. I had a few friends with me. We tried but failed. No one wanted to hire us. How sad. During December and January I basically spent everyday going out job hunting, but all positions were filled, since EVERYONE else had already been hired. I gave up eventually though. Jobless. When everyone else had a job and boasting just how much fun they're having. Gah!

    So stuck at home with nothing to do, and an empty feeling that drives me mad and confused everyday. Hmmm....

    But I did managed to entertain myself to appease the feeling and boredom. I game. I read. I played. A good thing I had Xbox Live. I entertained myself by playing everyday. Made a few good contacts with a few friends online. They're cool to play with, but I couldn't interact with them much. I read books. Lots. The Library technically became my second home. The stories I've read are still engraved deep in my head. I remember everything, it was a fun experience. I missed reading books. Story books, not textbooks. Heh.

    During the whole of the break, I've have watched a total of at least 12 movies. Mostly with her. Maybe even more. I kinda lost count. I grew fond for the movies and eventually started to enjoy any form of movie, even if the story was cliched and predictable.

    I wrote songs, I practiced my musicality. It's still kinda weak. I'm not a pro. I doubt I'd ever be. But I've learned a few new things, which others have probably mastered it long before me. I've wrote at least Two and Half songs. I only deem one of them good enough for showcasing. If you're counting my originals, I've at least covered more than 10 renditions of other songs. On acoustic though, 'coz I didn't actually had a band yet.

    And so this is where I end. During the final days prior to the orientation, I started going out alot. Hanging out with friends and eventually went jamming again (if you haven't noticed). I spent alot of money ($350 in a week... gawwd). I went for my orientation. Met cool people. Achieved my goal to perform on stage. And now the break ends. 6 months. Gone. It just flew by. School begins tomorrow. My old lifestyle ends when I go to bed in a few hours time. It's been fun while it lasted.

    I'm more than happy. Swear to god, I am.

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    Friday, April 17, 2009



    I'm too tired to type much now.

    But let's just say that, I had a blast, and looking forward to studying in NYP.

    Will elaborate on the orientation when I can.

    MS0901 ftw

    Tuesday, April 14, 2009

    Shakespeare Says Hi?

    After a total of 6 jam-less months, I've been finally invited to play with Khai and his Cousin & friends as Rythmist and back-up (literally) vocals.


    Random Jam! Thanks to Khai

    It's fun to finally get back to the studio and play again, even though we didn't sound as good as I thought we could have been. But since it was only a practice session, it didn't matter. I'm hoping we can get to the point where we improvising stuff would be a norm in our jam sessions.


    Going Kurt Cobain-ish, headbanging to "Smells Like Teen Spirit"....


    The people were great, I felt like a part of them quickly, though feeling abit left out. Through time, I believe I'll get to know them soon enough. They were great to hang out with and laugh with. I love making friends, haha.

    Speaking of making friends, my Poly orientation is only 2 days away. Feeling excited. The anticipation is killing me. Can't wait to meet new people. I'll probably be like "Oh Hi, I'm a musician" to them. Hahahah. I've got hints from my seniors (those 2 guys, 'sides Khai, are my Seniors apparently) that the Ory will be awesome. I'll have to see it for myself.

    Can't wait, You whoreson cullionly barber monger.... (Shakespearean insults)

    Wednesday, April 8, 2009



    And tonight I Thank the Stars,

    As I count my lucky Scars,
    For everything you've given me

    And all the words I gave to you,
    Something borrowed,
    Something blue
    If you want them back,

    I'll give it to you..........

    Saturday, April 4, 2009

    I can haz MONIES?

    I have an ATM card now.

    Bitch.

    Aww yeah!

    Friday, April 3, 2009

    Green Fiction

    These past two weeks, I have read 3 books.
    All written by Young Adult author John Green.

    It started out with a random poster at Sengkang Library (you know, the ones that they use to promote reading). The poster quoted a specific Paragraph from a book. And so out of curiosity (actually boredom), I went along to read it. I was amazed by the literature. The paragraph narrates a scene from the book that happened to be when the main character is trying to get back together with his "just friends" love. And then it struck my interest (oh i wonder how could that beeee..). And so I began researching for the source of said paragraph. "An Abundance of Katherines". Interesting title, I told myself. Without wasting anytime I was hard at work to find the book! (And by hard, I meant, just walking to the Catalogue computer station and squinting my eyes and staring at the bookshelves for 5 minutes). Found it, paid my fines, borrowed it, off I go reading it.


    Five days later, I returned "enlightened". It's been so long that I've read an actual good book (last book - "Cheated!" by Patrick Jones), I was amazed by the story. The plot. The writing style. The hilarity. The emotions. And the Logic and metaphors from the story. Wow. It astounded me. It was a nice read and left me thinking alot after that. I could really feel for the main character. And the story was a continuous line of i wanna read more coz it's so fun factor.

    The next day, I went looking for Paper Towns, Green's latest work, since I couldn't find Looking for Alaska at SKCL. Excitedly read it, and wow. It really hit me. It started off with a bang. It build up slowly with sub-plot after sub-plot but never gave up on the entertainment factor. It could leave you laughing in one page, then crying on the next, and instantly leaves you deep in thought with a single paragraph. Though I could not relate myself to the main character, I had wished I could be him. Also, I teared at the ending. Emotional, lol.

    Finally, found Looking For Alaska and read it. Decided to read it slowly, since I was reading books in less than a week (PT took me 4 days). But the concept of taking my time to read is foreign to me when I'm reading a book that wants me to find out what's going to happen next. The book felt different from the other two. It had the same deep writing style, but it was a much more serious and matured theme. And by mature, I mean sexual. I don't want to spoil it for you, but in one part, it talks about a girl performing fellatio for the main character. Oh wait, I just spoiled it for you. Well if you know what it meant, shush. If you don't, too bad. I Loled (no, I was not aroused). The book didn't have any big adventure unlike the other two, but it has a deeper message to one of the important character of the novel. I liked it alot, a good read if you can comprehend it's message.

    The books are so good, that I might even do a Review of each book in depth detail so you can know the plot without actually reading the book! Yay, see, how nice I am to y'all. Even without any professional training in Literature or book analyzing, I shall try my best to not sound like an idiot.

    With that said, I've enjoyed my Reading week and would now like to continue writing. I've had inspiration over the past week. Also, shopping. Yes. I need to do that. THE BREAK IS ALMOST ENDING. OH MY GOD I SPENT 5 MONTHS DOING NOTHING, AND NOW IT'S ALMOST OVER. HOW CAN THIS BE. IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD AS WE KNOW IT. And I feel fine. Gotta make my last few days of break as memorable as I can, before I can move on, without looking back and go on to begin another chapter in My book of life in the great wonders of a new world that awaits me. That sounded totally lame and not as melodramatic as I wanted to be. Meh.

    SO YES GO ON WITHOUT ME.
    RANDOM CAPITAL WORDS FTW.
    I WILL END THIS POST NOW..

    Thursday, April 2, 2009

    Harpie Burthdaeh

    A Special Shout-out, to a certain someone somewhere out there, who touched my heart, though cracked it a little, but still made it all worthwhile when we hang out.

    Happy Birthday, miss FarLoL

    19th to be precise. (funny, my birthday's on the 19th too! ... nevermind)

    May you keep living Lol-ful and Happy. Enjoy your final Teenage year. Mine's still long way to go.

    Woo!!